In the name of Allah, the Most Beneficent and Most Merciful. 

January has passed and I did not even get chance to even feel the vibes of the first month of the year. Time is moving really fast, or is it just me who was just too leisure and ignorant of the time? I don't know. I have completed my third semester of Master's degree and currently preparing for my final semester (insyaAllah)  before graduating this year. I hope Allah will make it easy for me that I will be able to get the second chance of convocation. Even though it would not be so much of difference with  the previous convocation, but hey I'm still graduating what? Hahaha. Put aside the orange robe okay. 

I am preparing myself for a better future. I hope Allah will make it easy for me to go through all these. It is a burden but really an untimale dream of mine, but of couse it was not easy to get along this way. I have been praying for it to be a smooth sailing journey as I thought I could be able to treasure the time that I have. Hurdles are endless and challenges that I have faced are limitless. So far,    I'm still standing strong for myself. We gonna get though this together and we are going to own this time. Allah is with us and He will guide us through the way. He is the Most Knowing after all. 

My dear readers (if any), pray for me that I will be able to get through this along the way. I am still pretty happy with my life right now. Not a single thing that I wish to change (at the moment), because as much as I keep whining about what things that might not be as how I wanted it to be, I am still blessed with countless gifts from Him. He loves me and He tests me to let me know that I need Him in everything that I'm doing. Therefore, I thank him for everything that He has bestowed me with. 

Till then, assalamu'alaykum. 

The less you give a sh*t about life, the happier you’ll become. That’s what I’ve always heard.

The thing is, we should not put too much attention and worry about worldly matters. I wasn’t trying to sound pious here, but trust me, the less you think about dunya matters, the calmer you’ll be. Trust me, we only live a short life and there’s nothing we can do about it. I know there are some people who would strive so hard to achieve the best they can, but trust me, the more pressure you put to achieve your expectation, the crazier you’ll become. So to keep your sanity at its best, don’t overthink about things that are not permanent. Time will fly away and there’s nothing you can do about it.

Each victory that you achieved yesterday will fade away by today. So does your failures. It may hurt you at once, but remember that the pain will go away. They are the things that we can’t stop. It will fade away when the time comes.

I hope I have made myself calmer. I was about to lose my sanity for these few days. Maybe I overthink about things that are not supposed to be think (that intense).

Stop putting pressure to yourself

You cannot control everything

Some things may not be as how you want it to be

Take a deep breath  and smile

You do you

Be calm and take a deeeeeeeep breath, Yasmin.

Everything is going to be just fine. Have faith in Him.

Penat dah aku nak jaga hati semua orang. Penat dah nak dahulukan orang lain sampai aku sendiri terbiar. Sakit jugak kadang-kadang bila apa yang kita buat tak dihargai. Bukan nakkan sangat penghargaan orang, tapi tolong la jangan selfish sangat. 

2017 is going to be my year. That is my promise. I am going to make full use of 2017 and make sure that I will be able to get everything I have to do before doing something else.

I am so tired.

I am so sorry if I sound ungrateful this time but I could help myself from feeling tired. At the end of the day, I am putting myself at the edge that I somehow forgot to even give some space for my own self. Aku terlalu...terlalu sangat mendahulukan orang lain. It's good to put other people first, but there's always a boundary of doing so. Jangan sampai diri sendiri merana sebab nak puaskan hati orang, nak senangkan orang lain. Then who's going to take care of my heart then? You? No.

Sedih, pedih. Sakit sangat. Allah je tahu macam mana aku harungi 2016. Penuh dengan onak duri dan ranjau. When I think of 2016, aku rasa there's nothing that I have done the best for myself. Semuanya so-so sahaja. Kepentingan diri sendiri aku ketepikan.  Sedih. Sedih bukan sebab apa, sedih sebab kesiankan diri sendiri.  Dah takde siapa nak kesiankan diri aku pun.  Baik aku kesiankan diri sendiri hahaha boleh tak macam tu? It's like begging love from somebody else la. Instead of hoping someone to love me, might as well I love myself first. Kan? Daripada harapkan orang simpati dan kesiankan diri aku, baiklah aku kesiankan diri sendiri.

Nevertheless, I have so many things  to be grateful last year. From getting offers for interviews to receiving offers for placement, I could not thank Allah enough for all blessings. I am fully blessed, at least I know I am loved and blessed by Allah. Cukuplah ada Allah bersama aku. Itu yang sebenarnya aku kena tanamkan dalam diri. Bukan harapkan penggantungan pada makhluk yang lain...